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We are completely unaware of most of our self defeating behaviors. If we knew what they were it would be easier to build defenses against them. Some of these come out or our blind spots. Several years ago I learned I had disabilities that were affecting my life.

I went to Vocational Rehab and took some tests and evaluations to find out why I was over forty years old and still having trouble making my life work. These evaluations showed that I had an auditory learning disability. I had trouble processing too much verbal material at one time. Once the material was learned I was fine but learning through listening did not work well for me.

Another issue was short term memory loss due to a head injury as a teenager. It was not bad but where the normal person can hold five items in short term memory I struggle to hold four. As I get older I need to write things down even more than ever. My fine motor skills are also lower than average. I scored an 80%. Why was I always attracted to jobs that needed nimble fingers? I was sinking my own ship.

Now let's combine this with a personality that has trouble with authority figures and a slight tendency toward passive agressive behavior and see what we get. Memories flash of an employer getting angry at me because I didn't understand what I was supposed to do and I would forget things that I was told. I couldn't remember them all. It also seemed like I was working too slowly even though I couldn't work any faster. I wouldn't ask for help or clarification because I didn't want to appear stupid.

I am not stupid but I was appearing stupid and couldn't understand why I kept having problems. Getting these evaluations were a life saver for me. They helped me understand why I was having troubles and also what my strengths were as well. I have a genius IQ and a near photographic memory for visual things. I take tests well. I have very good communication skills and high mechanical aptitude. I am very good at outside the box thinking and administrative tasks. I have a good understanding of human nature and people trust me.

Let's take physical health as another example. Do you know just how healthy or unhealthy you are? Last year I discovered I have high blood pressure and sleep apnea. Both were fairly severe. I will need to be on blood pressure medication and a CPAP machine for sleeping the rest of my life.

I was not really aware of any of these things. I assumed other people had many of the same problems and issues. I thought it was just as hard for them as it was for me. I didn't want to believe there was something wrong with me. I wanted to be just a good as the next person. I did not recognize my own limitations.

The trouble was that my life was not working and I was into middle age. What about your life? If it is working great! If it is not working it might be wise to take a few minutes and think about why. Take a few examinations, talk to some friends and experts. Get second opinions. Discover what your blind spots are. We all have them.

If you are running into a brick wall perhaps you are going in the wrong direction even if you feel it is the right direction. The biggest thing anyone can recognize is when they are putting out tremendous effort and it is not working. One of the great secrets in life is to take what works and turn it into the things you want. The things that don't work will never turn into anything except more failures.

Let go of the things that don't work and focus on the things that do work. When you are refreshed and full of successful energy tackle those old issues and interests from positions of strength and not weakness. In the area of relationships realize that no matter how much one person might want things to work out, both people need to want it. Both people need to work at it. If only one person is trying the relationship is already lost.

If you are not getting some type of reward or gain from the effort you put out something is wrong. This is a red flag that you need to recognize. When you continue doing what you are doing you will continue to get the results that you are getting. Evaluate the results you are getting and determine if they are enough.



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I had my first major spiritual experience at fourteen. They say your conscience kicks in around the age of twelve but at fourteen mine was still not bothering me.

I came from a strongly religious home with high standards. The problem was the standards were so high no human could live them. I found myself living a split life. At home around my parents I was one person and in school and around friends I was someone totally different. Leading two lives was stressful but I could handle it.

In a small way I lied and I stole things. We were poor and I never had any money to buy what I wanted. I just took things. I was smart and able to get away with it. I remember going to confirmation class at church. It was a joke because I already knew all of the bible stories by heart. They had been read to us so much that I was sick of them. That was not the case for most of the other kids in class and they were having a hard time of it. I was easily the star student and favorite.

Forget the fact that I was sitting in class munching on candy. I had stolen money from the good will box and used it to buy candy to eat during class. Like I said, my conscience had not kicked in yet.

But the stress of living two lives kept building and my spiritual training kept putting more pressure on me to change. One traumatic night I couldn't stand it any longer. It didn't matter if God forgave me or not because I couldn't stand to live with myself. My own personal standards were higher than what I was living and it was killing me.

I was not being true to myself and it led to a crisis and spiritual conversion. Perhaps this was the typical "born again" experience. All I knew was that I could not live with myself the way I was. I needed to change. I needed to feel good about myself.

That night in the darkness I prayed to God and the Cosmic to help me and guide me in all things. I vowed never to lie or steal again and I never have. Since that night thirty six years ago my conscience has been clean and I have remained trlue to myself. It is not always easy but it is the most powerful thing a person can do.

Later the Rosicrucians taught me that God or the Cosmic speaks through the heart and through the still small voice of the conscience. They called this voice the "Master Within". This was my first exposure to the concept of internal authority vs. external authority.

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Fear is a natural and healthy emotion that lets us know something is dangerous. There are two distinct ways we can respond to fearful situations.

In the jungle a lion stalks its prey. Right before the lion pounces for the kill it lets out a fearful roar. The victim either freezes in terror or bolts like lightning. If it freezes in terror its dead. If it bolts in terror it might have a chance to live another day.

Several years ago I studied the martial arts and some of the behavior patterns were sinking into my subconscious. I liked going for walks in the country, especially at night. I would walk along the road next to a creek. One night I was walking along the road when a beaver slapped its tail in the water about six feet away from me. It sounded like a shotgun going off. I was terrified and jumped almost two feet into the air.

The interesting thing is that in mid air I managed to turn around to face the sound and came down crouching in a martial arts fighting stance. When the brain goes numb the body reverts to training. This is something the military knows very well. In my terror my body responded the way it had been trained. This was a good thing.

Now another example. Several years ago I was working a job in a casino as a security guard. We patrolled the entire casino and kept an eye on things. One of my co-workers was making her rounds in the pool area when a baby fell into the pool. The mother froze. All she could do was scream. She couldn't even make an attempt to save her baby. My co-worker dived into the pool and rescued the baby without even thinking about it. Again the body reverts to training.

Training to escape, training to rescue or even training in self defense are vital. This is the training that allows our body to function when our minds freeze. There will always be fearful situations in life. We will at times experience fear. We don't need to become paralyzed by it.

A very powerful type of self empowerment is to confront our personal fears and learn to deal with them so they loose their ability to harm us. I am afraid of heights but I can go up on roofs if I need to. I am afraid of water but I have learned how to swim enough that I can save myself in most situations.

I have been afraid of intimacy within relationships but I am learning how to cope with that as well. Confronting these types of fears becomes the work of a life time. It is also one of the most rewarding things a person can do.

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